I feel a bit better now.
Today was the first time, I felt what it is the streanth of a man who is now teaching you how to defeand your self.
and remaind you it is never about violent.
and the next thing he do is smash you to the walles ( wher ther is a very nice cushing- not to worry )
and then he smake you again, and again, and againd, but this time with his arms, elbos only, body not moving almost at all...
and he is soft as a... not words to explain it for somone who did not know it from his own expiriance.
sorry.
limitations of what you can not teach via internet. thier are some things worth living for. worth expiriansing first hand. not all is so tribole. ( like you used to think )
and sometimes... your teachers place is to "wake you up".
( if you do not pay attnetion, you will, probebly after this "small" teaching.
and if that is not enoght.
you will be facing your most devestating alements.
1. you may find your slef...
smealing someone's joint you did not wish to smeal... ( bending.. helpless for one entair second )
2. you may find yourself needing to arm somone on his neck. and you don't think one second about your breasts at that moement, trust me.
but it is very very rewording. no words can explain.